So, I don’t know if this is a secret or not, but I’ve been having a tough time of it ever since graduating last May. I think it was just the lack of knowing what was next. My whole life I’ve known what the next step was–elementary school, middle school, high school, college–but what about after college? I had bills to pay, so I got a mediocre retail job, but I was reluctant to commit to anything more involved. I didn’t want to be tied down when I wasn’t sure what I was doing, and I didn’t have any money to go elsewhere. It felt very claustrophobic, to be honest.
I spent a year drifting. Sometimes that was OK, but more often than not I just felt lost. Like my life was in a holding-pattern; a plane that couldn’t land but didn’t know where to fly next.
And then a chance conversation with a co-worker led me to the perfect answer. As I might have mentioned, I’ve been pretty obsessed with Korean dramas lately. I watch them all the time. I mentioned this to someone at work, who I knew had spent some time teaching in Japan. I was talking about how confused I felt, since I didn’t want to keep working there but wasn’t sure what else I could do. “Why don’t you teach English in Korea?” she asked. “Well, I can’t speak Korean. I couldn’t do that… could I?”
It turns out I totally can do that. For some reason the thought had never occurred to me–I didn’t realize that was something that could be done. But it is, a lot of people do it, and it’s very popular at the moment–Asian countries are very eager to have native English-speakers come and teach. And they don’t care if you know the language or not! Jackpot.
As the very beginning of this blog would probably tell you, I LOVE to travel. I hate being tied down in the same place. Unfortunately, that usually requires money–something I don’t really have in abundance. This would be a great opportunity to see someplace new while also getting paid. What more can you ask for? I’ve done a lot of research into the idea so far, and it seems pretty legit. However, I’m in the middle of switching jobs, and I also have to take a course on teaching English as a second language, so I won’t be going anytime soon–probably next February-March at the earliest. Nonetheless, I feel like I have a purpose again. I know what the next step is. I know where I’m flying. And I’m pretty darn excited.
In the meantime, I’ve started studying some Korean, because whether or not they require it, I would still feel better living in a foreign-speaking country for a year if I already knew at least the basics. I’m already studying harder than I ever did in school–I think I’ve been away long enough to miss it, ha ha. Go figure!
So, while this is still quite some time away, I just wanted to let you know what was up with me. This adrift feeling is part of the reason why I’ve been so apathetic and unproductive lately, so I apologize. Unfortunately, artistic endeavors aren’t things you can really do on autopilot, like some jobs–you need to be present mentally, which I’m not a lot of the time. (Ha ha.) But now that I feel less lost, I’m hoping that it will be reflected in my output. (Fingers crossed!)
And don’t worry–even if I am in Korea, I still plan to work on my writing projects. I’m going to try to get back into editing and re-working, so that barring any unforeseen problems, I could theoretically release The Life of Gaia at Christmastime. Wouldn’t that be sweet? But we’ll see how it goes!
I hope everyone is doing well. I’ll try to tune in more regularly!